Making Time

Something that has occupied my thoughts of late is my allocation of time. 

I always feel like I am running short of time, that time constantly eludes me, that it is something I have to chase. Perhaps what I need to do is stop filling up my daily schedule and instead book up blocks of time to just BE.

I am into my 27th week of pregnancy. If truth be known, I haven't managed stress or time that well. I have allowed things to get at me, to dismantle my barriers and leave me open to attack. I allowed this.

I have an opportunity right here right now to stop and reclaim my time.

And yet I hesitate.

I have come to realise, much like watching the sun rise, that I tend to melancholia. I dislike this realisation and I am determined to change it. I feel as though my face is set in that morose look, you know the one where you realise that those lines will one day be a testimonial to all how you faced your life?

Not a good face to be remembered for.

So..... how will I do this?

I have printed out a weekly schedule and jotted down the imperatives of school, work and regular appointments. I have also scheduled in time to relax - half hourly blocks where I may nap, read a book, take a walk or just enjoy the solitude.

I have made a commitment to turning my mobile phone off every night, and on silent throughout the day. I have also begun leaving it at home when I head out for coffee, dinner or to the shops. It irks me to see people constantly on their phone, checking emails, messages, sending messages..... I am concerned I have forgotten how to enjoy the voids that we encounter in queues, at traffic lights, in waiting rooms.... perfect opportunities to allow the mind to rest.

I am already exercising and feeding my body well, I need to ensure that I add some more vegetables and water to my diet. Similarly I have a solid sleep routine which I could improve with a better posture pillow.

Small things really, but the decision to commit to them have already bought me some relief.